Am I Going Mad?

The Unsettling Phenomena of Spiritual Evolution

by Marlyse Carroll

Finally, a book that shines a light on the messier side of spiritual growth.

When someone has a mind-blowing inner experience – the kind that cracks open how they see reality – one of two things tends to happen.

Either they make sense of it, and it becomes a doorway to greater awareness and wellbeing.

Or they don’t. And without context, the natural response is fear: confusion, panic, sometimes full-blown crisis. It can feel deeply isolating — like no one else could possibly understand what’s happening inside your own head. Too often, people in this state get labeled mentally ill, when what they’re really experiencing is spiritual, not pathological.

Years ago, author Marlyse Carroll lived through exactly that kind of isolation. In the years since, she’s worked directly with thousands of people navigating their own spiritual unfolding – and seen, again and again, how much difference real understanding and guidance can make. This book is the result.

A spiritual awakening isn’t all love and light.

Am I Going Mad? is about the extraordinary experiences that tend to show up at different turning points in our inner growth – and no, it’s not all love and light. Some of it is genuinely unsettling, unsettling enough to be mistaken for depression, schizophrenia, or other forms of mental illness.

When it comes to spirituality, not knowing isn’t blissful – it’s disorienting. The more clearly we understand our own minds, the easier this journey becomes. That’s what this book sets out to do: give you a working understanding of the psyche, so the harder parts of spiritual growth become something you can actually move through, rather than something that derails you.

Read it cover to cover, or dip into whichever story speaks to you — either way, expect to laugh, maybe cry, and definitely learn something. About yourself. About transpersonal psychology, spirituality, shamanism, and even quantum physics.

By the end, you’ll have a real framework for making sense of the inner experiences that once felt like they had no explanation — one that can speed up your path toward emotional intelligence, physical wellbeing, and a genuine sense of spiritual fulfillment.

If you meditate, work with plant medicine, or you’re simply curious how your own mind actually works — this one’s for you.